Ramblings of a wannabe therapist

Work has been going alright. Cases have already closed on two of my clients! Not because I'm good and "cured" them but because the court closed the case on them and they no longer receive free services at our agency, and most people don't want to start paying! I feel like I'm starting to learn a lot, but I still feel so ineffectual. A friend of mine asked me, "So, do you feel like they're benefiting from therapy?" I honestly was like, "No!" But I think a lot of times we don't realize the magnitude of our influence. Not just as a therapist, but in general. I think so many times, people don't realize just how much power they have, for the better or worse. President Hinckley expressed this once, saying he walked out of a stake conference feeling like he made no difference, only to have someone express to him years later that his talk was influential in his remaining active in the church. I'm seeing this in my work now, too. Parents have so much influence over their children it's almost scary to think about as a single person who eventually wants to have children. So many children end up with such crappy behavior and no chance to succeed in the larger society because their parents really did not know how, or did not take the time, to teach them proper boundaries. Either that or they end up being so messed up because they don't realize how worthwhile of a person they are, because their parents could not readily show them love. Another intern has a client who has expressed that she does not want her child, and doesn't even like her son. How horrible is that? This poor kid has no chance if even his mother doesn't love him. I wouldn't be surprised if he ended up being a murderer or something.

So, that there was an example of free-associating journal writing. I decided I should post because I haven't in a while, and I didn't know what to write about that wouldn't just be whining about stuff, so I started talking about something and it ended up being this big soapbox. Interesting. Still found a way to whine a little. : )

I am so done with school. Why I signed up for two more years, I don't know. Well, I guess I do know. I wanted a job that wasn't data entry. But regardless. I can't wait to be done.