Is there a Mormon version of a nun? Because if there is, sign me up! I am sooo sick of men right now. I don't hate men. I'm not angry at specific men or even men in general. I just hate the effect men have on me. I hate how I always feel uncertain around them, and as soon as I think I might have a taste of hope with a man life comes from behind and kicks me in the rear.
Now, I say this knowing that I am young. I am not yet 24. I know many people are tempted to say, "Oh, you'll find someone great." While I appreciate the love behind these consolations, it is still not reassuring. I guess I lack faith in the Lord...but seriously, fabulous women never get married in this life...or later in life when they cannot have children any more. I am fine with the fact that I am not married right now. I really am. But isn't it normal to have a boyfriend at some point in one's adulthood? I haven't. I went off to college and then my last boyfriend broke up with me...in 2002! I've kinda sorta dated a couple guys (literally, a couple) since then, but it has never lasted more than a month. I'm sorry, but current circumstances (guy I kinda sorta dated moved recently...and is already dating someone else!? in addition to always getting lonely at the holidays) are making me a little bit more cynical right now.
Sorry I needed to rant. I probably sound like a bitter old hag right now and I hope I don't come across that way. I'm not angry at anyone or anything. I'm just frustrated, feeling hopeless, and emotionally worn out from rejection/disappointment/whatever.
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